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Here I Resign as a Ghost

Monday, September 15, 2025

My freedom was stripped away from me.

I thought I was imprisoned before this but I never knew;

Trapness and loneliness quite like this.

To be in pain physically and mentally,

I was screaming inside but no one saw it.

I wasn't allowed to cry,

I wasn't allowed to be angry,

I wasn't allowed to lash out,

I had to act like my pain was not overpowering me.

Like my heart wasn't shaking from fear.

Fear of abandonment, fear that things will never be the same again.

I didn't have my freedom before this but now I had none.

Constantly living in someone else's space, never my own.

Wanting to be seen but never met.

Am I invisible?

Expect me to be there for everyone even when I'm in pain.

I'm so miserably drained.

How much more do you all want from me?

Witness everyone's pain but never my own.

I was so trapped,

I couldn't even find a space to cry for myself.

Control, control that's what they all want me to fucking do.

Control my emotions, what about yours?

Why is it only me? Why is it always me?

Why do I have to be the one to hold pain that I never deserved?

Why did I had to be an adult before I even knew what it meant?

Stop tearing my heart apart just so life is easier for you.

I broke my heart to save yours but you don't even see it.

I broke my bones and still got blamed for being too much.

I broke my bones and I still had to endure more than just my pain?

Spent my whole life being told I was too much, maybe you're just too little?

Maybe I'm the one who is truly alive and you're not.

I tiptoed so much I became a ghost of my own needs.

I fell, I fell so hard when I...

Broke my heart

Broke my bones

Broke my mind

What else was there to break?

I'm not too much, you are simply just not enough.

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