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Friday, December 20, 2019

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"We do not want to die, we just want to kill something inside of us."

We always want honesty and loyalty from people but do we ever follow it? We demand the truth but yet when it is shown to us, we would sometimes choose to avoid it because we were unable to accept it. Yes, truth hurts but as the saying goes,"hurt me with the truth but never comfort me with a lie". However, there is a fine line between honesty and bullying. Constructive critism would be good as it helps others but insulting others just for the sake of their own amusement is a whole different story. Sometimes, we even find it hard to be honest to ourselves. We love people who hurt us even when we know they are not good for us. We knew that it would hurt but yet we still went on with it. We tell ourselves, "Maybe, he'll change" or "Maybe, she'll change", but they did not changed and we end up crying in our sleep on our pillows for people who aren't even worth it. We lie to ourselves just so we could feel better. We blindly fall in love and accept every flaw they had. We let go of their pasts and accept them as who they are in the present. Our minds would tell us that they are not the right one but our stubborn heart would still fall head over heels.

Days and months passed, we just kept reminding ourselves, "I love him/her", maybe that is enough. Maybe he will put his pride down and accept me for who I am. Maybe if I treat him well enough, one day he will see it but months and years passed, he is still the same. In fact, from him loving you , it became loved. It makes you realise,"People would only see your sacrifices if they choose to see it." There are so many things in our lives that we are not willing to accept because it hurts us. We would create excuses to stay with the person we love although we know it is not the right choice. Still. the biggest question is, "Is complete honesty ever so good for mankind?". If we were all completely transparent, would the world be a better place to live in or would it turn into a unsolvable chaos? In my thoughts; There are some things that are not meant to be shared. There are secrets that were meant to be kept. There are thoughts that were not meant to be said.

As friends, family, lovers, we demand loyalty from them but yet we are not that loyal ourselves. Sometimes, we hope that our close friends would not have new friends so that they would spend more time with us but yet we can have more friends while hoping that the other, don't; which is selfish. We want our lover, partner, soulmate to never cheat on us by trusting them with our hearts to not do things that are considered as cheating but are you really not cheating on him or her? Are you hiding or deleting your texts just so your other half wouldn't see it? Are you honest to him or her about how you really feel about your relationship? We want to be treated like princesses and are we really treating them like princes? I have always believed in,"Do not do things that you do not want your partner to do." Just like," Treat others like how you want to be treated" but I have to say. this does not apply to every situation.

If you are so unhappy or unsatisfied with a relationship, be brave and tell your partner. Try every possible ways to solve your issues and always remember, it is both of you against the problem not both of you being on a one versus one arguement which would probably lead to more problems. Try to fight till the end for your relationship. If it becomes toxic or hopeless, ask yourself, "Is this even worth it?". The right partner would always make you feel warm and secured that is if you actually tell your partner how you really felt on the insides of your precious heart. Your heart should be something priceless, cherished, be taken good care of because your heart is like glass. It is very fragile. Once it is broken, it can never be the same again and it is easy to get hurt these days by your family, partner or even friends. Faithfulness, Loyalty and Honesty is getting so much more rarer. Although technology seemed to be more advanced but humans, however became less of a human. We became robots who lack morality and conscience. Some people tend to lack basic respect and curtesy. Our technical and scientific knowledge is increasing but sadly, not our humanity. Technology removes the physical distance between people but sadly, not the emotional distance.