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Wednesday, April 18, 2018

I can't sleep well at night, my ~~demons~~; they bite.

People tell me it will eventually be alright, I told them, "I can never win this fight".

It's so hard to explain what is going on my mind, I guess my trusted angels; they ~~resigned~~.

At times, I wonder, will I ever be enough?

Why do I always feel like my hands are ~~cuffed~~?

You told me to persevere, I told you this pain is too severe.

I tend to always question myself, "Why do I need to feel this pain?"

All of my soul, they are drained.

My mind would then replied, "It's only because, you are your own bane"

My heart, my mind, my soul, they have all fallen apart.

I just wish I could get a restart.

When I inhale all this smoke, all sorts of memories; they woke.

"Stop smoking", they say but why should I? It somehow takes my pain away.

I try and try to be better, to feel better but all my efforts are pointless like an unread burned letter.

I have always asked myself, does it really matter?

If I was alive or completedly shattered?

If parts of me are all scattered, would people even notice that I have lost this battle?

Deep inside, I just wanted someone to notice or at least wishing I was in a ~~hypnosis~~.

"You should always appreciate life", she said.

I do, believe me, I really do but I am constantly grieving on my bed.

I never wanted people to feel the way I did so I treated people as nice I can be.

Somehow, it backfired on me and it showed me that being nice is not all that good.

You help and help others but how much did you actually help yourself?

"You hurt yourself trying to help others. You give them a part of you and they will just take it away."

Slowly, nothing of you will be left. You will be there for people when they need you.

But ask yourself and think clearly,"Who would actually help you when you are in need?"

"Who would go out of their convenience just to sincerely help you?"

"Whether you are a friend or a stranger to them."

"How much would they help you if you really need their help?"

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