"Do not fear for what
needs to be lost."
| Fate | Sunday, November 13, 2016 | Leave a comment |
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| Love's like a rose, beautiful; but hurts when you touch. |
For the longest period of time, I have actually forgotten what was it like to fall head over heels for someone. To willingly give your 100%, whether it's effort or time to someone you are crazy for. I have always wondered when would I be able to actually meet someone who would give me his 100% without doubting me. I might be a terrible person to love at first but I know once my heart is taken, it will only be that person's. Is it really that hard to gain acceptance in this cruel world? Well, it is a cruel world so ofcourse it's hard. In every relationship you have, this might be untrue to certain people but seriously, " I love you for who you are" is not really true. You always expect certain changes even if it is just one small change from that special someone. I might be mean to say so but as far as I know, it has always been like this. I know the word "love" sounds so heavenly to some people but to others, it sounds like hell and it all depends on what kind of person you love. That one person can change your whole perspective towards love. I finally meet someone who changed mine. I started trusting love again. Maybe this is the time where I finally met the right one. I was hopeful but yet afraid.
But the sad thing is, whenever you give someone your 100%, when they're gone, they take everything from you. Your feelings, your trust, your love, your efforts. Suddenly, you start questioning everything you once knew about relationships because you know everything applies differently to different people. And then you restart yourself. For everything you knew, does not applies to your current one. You learn to adapt to your new lover. New habits, new lifestyle and even changing some of your perspectives. You don't mind doing so because you know; to see a smile on your precious one's face, will make you feel contented. I would do whatever it takes to make you happy eventhough I might not show it. I definitely will not point out the sacrifices I have made for you because I know you have done the same. I might forget certain words you have said but every effort you have done, I can feel it. I just never thought that one day, we would be at this point. We were so close to a happy ending but yet so far. For everything that we have been through, I hope that you are patient enough to hold on to us. If it's not the right time now, we will wait for it.
"If it doesn't break your heart, it isn't love."
The paths after this sometimes kills my heart because I don't know how will we end up to be. For the things I have been through all these years, I am so terrified of the future. Were we meant to be or are we just forcing the impossible? Maybe we are fated but never destined to be with one another. Should we go against destiny or just surrender to it? I really don't want to get hurt again but as I know someone once told me, " You should always put up a fight for someone you love, even if you lose them, at least you know you've tried your best." By the hope of love, I am holding on to what makes me happy and hope that it would end up well. But one thing I know is. If I lose you, I'm sealing my heart for good. My last chance on love is counting on you. The one and only person who I've cherished and love most.
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