I've put on mask after mask so that the people around me will not be worried. That person I don't want to hurt the most end up getting the most hurt because of what I'm going through. I tried to reveal my dark side but it just made things worst. I'm so very tired of hiding. Walking around blankly across the streets. Staring at the walls of what seem so much when it was actually nothing. Laughing loudly at little things that were not so funny just so you could feel better. Sometimes I really wonder if you hide the pain enough, will it fade away sooner or later? If you tell yourself, you're okay, will you forget the pain? If you see the one you cherish most in pain and the cause of it was you, you would definitely choose to tell that person " I'll be okay " or " I'm fine ". You saw how hurtful it is for him to see you crying, so you tell him that it was all fine. I'm fine. All I wanna do is cry and break down but I don't know if I can anymore. There's nothing left in me. Now I truly understand. When you really love someone, you would do anything just to see him smile.