"The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you"
You know that kind of rush you get when you see someone you like? Or maybe just someone who could steal your heart just for a sec, even it that person was a stranger. That feeling. It's the kind of feeling I've been missing for so long. It really has been awhile. Things have changed so much. One word, chaotic. But I'm over it, I guess. I mean how could you betray someone and pretend like nothing happened? Sometimes I take friendships too seriously. I mean, the only thing I can't stand of in this world, is people who can't be loyal. Relationship/Friendship. Is it that hard? Why the heartless betrayals, the hard cold lies and barbie-doll-fakeness?
"Once you had put the pieces back together, even though you may look intact, you were never quite the same as you'd been before the fall "
Anyway, I haven't seen you for quite a while now. Part of my memories with you are slowly fading away. I can hardly remember how you looked like. It's just stupid, liking someone who's so out of your league right? Should've known. Someone like me will never end up with someone like him. It's just too miracle-ish. I really need to stop this. " Nothing hurts more than unrequited love. " Recently, I met someone who could made me forget about him, at least, just for awhile. That's all I need with this condition but he was just too good to be true. I really wonder how do you forget someone whom at one point, meant the world to you? All you can do is stay strong with what's left of your broken-heart.Cause there's no use in weeping when we are condemned to part. I should believe in fate, right? If it's bound to happen, then it will be, I guess.
There are times when I wish I was another person. Not like this. I'm always exhausted even when I've done nothing for the entire day. Maybe it's cause my brain is not "happy" anymore, so my body takes the hit? I don't know but people say that a broken heart affects your physical body. I guess that's what I'm going through. At times, I feel happy when I'm with my friends but when I'm not with them, it just feels empty again. The absence of sound. " The worst kind of loneliness is in a crowded place "
" The heart was meant to be broken - Oscar Wilde "
I know my heart will never be the same but I'm telling myself I'll be okay.
