"Do not fear for what

needs to be lost."


Changes.Tuesday, November 20, 2012Leave a comment

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Love.
" Love isn't something you can turn on and off, unless you're faking it "

I used to be that girl that sees everything in life positively. That girl who believed in the word love. I used to believe that love only brings nothing but happiness. Those fairytales. I actually thought it could happen. Untill now, I can't believe that I would come to this level. So hurt. So heartbroken. So full with sorrow thoughts in my mind that can't be erased. I tried, being happy, ignoring the things makes me sad. It worked ; for a while. Why is it so hard? I asked myself every night. Maybe because I'm not strong enough. I'm so dumb. Its not the fact that you left that hurts, its the truth that you never felt love all along. Those lies. fake promises and hopes. Shattered dreams.



And because of you, I've changed. Into a person that I would never expect to be. I don't believe in forever. In fact, I feel like my heart is numb. I feel insecure everytime. Maybe it's because "After being broken so many times, you reach the point where you can't be fixed" And now I even have this fear. A fear that I can never get rid of. I feel so lost, in this big world.


 



I wanna change. I wanna be someone better. I want to make people happy. It just enlightens me when they smile. I wanna live in a peaceful life. And always be there for my friends. I know how it feels, to be left alone. I don't want people to feel the same way as I do, I will try my best to cheer you up no matter what. I strongly believe that, no one in this world deserves to be called ugly; even when you hate them that much. How deep this scar is, I believe; it will recover. I'm trying my best to not overthink and feel dead emotionally. Or not. Let's just say. It's a new start to something greater.


Think for others first, not yourself :)










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